Downstairs, his mother hung up. He heard her blow her nose, then run the faucet to cover the sound. She would come up in a minute, knock twice—gentle, apologetic—and ask if he wanted meatloaf. She would pretend her eyes weren’t red. He would pretend not to notice. That was their love language: the art of the graceful lie.
“Okay,” he said. His voice came out steady. That was another skill: the steady voice. The one that said I’m fine when his insides were a riot. rocco-s pov 17
Rocco’s jaw tightened until his molars screamed. He wasn’t angry. He was a pressure cooker with a welded-shut lid. The anger was just the steam. What lived underneath was worse: a raw, skinned-knee terror that he was already becoming his father. That the short fuse, the slammed doors, the silence that ate entire rooms—it was all just code. DNA waiting to boot up. Downstairs, his mother hung up
Rocco grabbed his jacket. He didn’t know who he wanted to be tonight—the angry boy, the sad boy, the boy who kissed girls in closets and then ran. He only knew that staying in this room, with its museum of old selves, was a kind of dying. She would pretend her eyes weren’t red
Rocco stood up. He walked to his mirror and looked at the boy staring back. Dark circles. A jaw that needed shaving but not badly enough to bother. A small scar above his eyebrow from a bike crash when he was twelve—back when pain was simple, just gravel and blood and a mother’s kiss.