"I don't choose the brother. I don't choose the humanity.
I’ve been stabbed, drowned, burned, and turned. I’ve had my memories ripped out of my head like pages from a book. And through all of it... through all the Originals and the hybrids and the hellfire... I keep asking myself one question.
Then I died.
"What if I don't want to be the anchor anymore? What if I want to be the flame?"
"You want to know the secret no one tells you about being the doppelgänger? It’s not the running. It’s not the dying. It’s the math. Every day, you have to calculate exactly how much of your heart to give to one brother so the other doesn't shatter. You have to measure your own happiness in teaspoons, because if you take a whole cup... someone pays for it in blood. the vampire diaries monologue
The Anchor and the Flame
Because everyone loves the martyr. The town loves the girl who died for them. Stefan loves the human who saved him. Damon loves the ghost who forgave him. But no one... no one ... asks what I want when the war is over. "I don't choose the brother
And I found out that letting go was the easy part. The hard part... the real hard part... is being torn in half and choosing to stay alive anyway."
But Damon…"
"When I was human, I thought the hardest thing in the world was letting go. I thought grief was a pit with no bottom. I buried my parents on a Tuesday, and by Friday, I had already forgotten what my mother’s laugh sounded like. I remember thinking... 'If this is what life is, I don't want it.'
And for the first time in four seasons... that girl is terrifying ." I’ve had my memories ripped out of my